Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Stuck in the Mud

Yes, yesterday I went out to go shopping - just to get a few things at the store, and I got stuck in the mud at the top of our hill. There are these two little tracks of cement that the car has to stay on, and I accidentally went off, and since it's been raining so much lately I got stuck in the mud. Forty five minutes later with the help of my friend Katie and an Indonesian neighbor, we finally got the car out of the mud. When Dave got home for lunch, he could see the remains of several tears and said, "What's wrong?" I told him about my adventure, and how I hadn't been able to accomplish what I wanted to do. He said, "IWA." I said, "What in the world does IWA mean?" He said, "Indonesia Wins Again!" (Our friends the Holstens have coined this term!)
Now, on its own, although frustrating, that one event may not have brought me to tears, but after the last several days of "reality" hitting about living in Indonesia, it did. Reality in the form of: pretty constant rain for the last week (that means constant clouds, and you all know how much I love clouds!), the LPG(gas) running out for the stove while I was preparing dinner for guests, training a new househelper, the boys getting eaten up by mosquitos, mosques that go off and echo inside your brain because it's so loud(5 times a day, starting at 4:30 am). Anyway, you get the picture.
The first three weeks of being here have been wonderful at times, and very frustrating at other times. God is definitely teaching us a lesson in dependence upon Him, and also in changing our expectations. The reason we get so frustrated when things go wrong is because we're not expecting them to. Pretty much in America things work (internet, electricity, your oven, the hot water...) Well, that may not always be the case here. So, I must admit, yesterday, being stuck in the mud just capped my experience of being slightly depressed. I really feel like God is teaching me to be honest when things are frustrating, but to trust Him to take care of me, and to provide for my needs. And, if things don't work out like I want them to, to have faith that He is in control and has a good reason.
One good thing that came from being stuck in the mud was I got to meet our Indonesian neighbor, who helped me. I was so grateful that she would be willing to get dirty and come and help me. So I decided to take her a gift of rambutan (That's an Indonesian fruit that looks like it has hair on it- rambut means hair). Indonesians love to give and receive gifts. So, you can pray for more opportunities to visit with her.
When I get discouraged about the hard things of living here in Indonesia, I think about two weeks ago when I got to sit next to a friend in church, and see her for the first time. I will call her Mary, though that is not her real name. Mary grew up Muslim, and accepted Christ about a year ago or so. God gave me the privilege of talking to her when we lived here before. She and her Canadian husband lived next door. She told me about having dreams about Jesus, and we got to pray together as she was definitely seeking. So imagine my joy to get to sit next to her in church and call her "sister!" That has been one of the most exciting things of all so far! She has been ostricized from her family, yet her faith persists. Sitting next to her I had new appreciation for the blood of Jesus and what we are saved from. Praise God!
Hannah's anniversary is coming up (number 7) of her homegoing to heaven. It is August 2. We have been praying and thinking of how to spend that day. My heart has been heavier lately and I think part of it is the anticipation of that day and all of the emotions it brings. You can pray that God would give is strength and blessing on that day.
PRAYER POINTS: Pray for our attitudes as we encounter difficulties here. And for fortitude on Hannah's anniversary and the days leading up to it, and for much fruit to come from her life and memory. Thank you! We are so grateful for all of you!


  1. We will set aside special time on August 2nd to remember our little friend Hannah. There are some kittens in my life that might need attention in her honor. I think I'd like to play and sing a song I taught her "I Am Jesus' Little Lamb". I'll probably have to pin a tail on the back of my shorts and pretend to be something! We will pray for you guys and think of you and the boys as well. May it be a day of freedom through the pain.

    With much love,
    Eric and Anne and family

  2. So glad to hear an update from you! You have been on my heart lately. What an encouraging story about your friend 'Mary'. God is walking with you EVERY step while you grieve Hannah & your memories there with her. Nothing is wasted with Him. Stay strong, stay real, stay soft-hearted toward the Lord & keep your eyes fixed on Him & not these distrations from the enemy. I love you!! Cassie

  3. That was a great post and I appreciated getting to read it. My heart goes out to you as you adjust to "not expecting IWA"! =0) Even though I'm in America it feels at times like things "aren't working right". Not the water or the gas but other my husband not getting a job, living at my in-law's house, etc. Your words were encouraging for me in my circumstances. I often feel like a failure when I can not bare up under my circumstances. But that's just me not keeping my eyes on Jesus and His purposes! Thanks for sharing here. I'll be praying on August 2nd as well but I'm going to start praying right now as you anticipate it.

  4. Yea! I finally got a google account to follow you with! Happy day! :)
    Thank you for sharing! It makes us feel not so far away from your dear family!
    It sounds like God is working in relationships with some Indonesians. That is wonderful! I will be praying for those friendships to grow and that God will direct you and use you in their lives!
    Hang in there with all that rain! Try to convince yourself that you LOVE green??? :)

  5. Julie and I are sitting in my living room just about ready to pop in something Austen.... We have been thinking about you a lot latley and praying for you. I was just able to read your blog. I am so happy that you are able to connect with some of the people there. The Lord is GOOD! Hang in there, WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU!Send and E-mail when you can.